| So, Yes. |
[06 Dec 2006|06:15am] |
RIGHT.
New Things To Add People.
Following website changes.
www.myspace.com/edenapocalypse
www.deviantart.edenapocalypse.com
www.livejournal.com/edenapocalypse
Email Changes - EdenApocalypse@Hotmail.co.uk.
www.zombielocks.co.uk Remains The Same.
The Following Websites Will Be Closed/Not In Use.
www.misscyanide.com
www.deviantart.missxcyanide.com
www.livejournal.com/missxcyanide
www.myspace.com/misscyanide.
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| A Change Of Seasons.. And Names. |
[04 Dec 2006|03:38pm] |
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Sonata Artica - Replica |
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Thats right, as of Christmas Onwards. Miss Cyanide will be no more. MissCyanide.com will be gone, as well as the Model name.
Miss Cyanide will Be Replace With The Suited, And Well Thought Out Eden Apocalypse.
Catchy eh?
Oh, and my forms have come through so I can ACTUALLY now change my real name from Anna to Eden. Chavtastic.
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| Naked Chicks? |
[01 Dec 2006|02:05pm] |
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Turisas - Heart Of Turisas |
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I had the STRANGEST dream last night.
I was on Holiday with my mum, two sisters and brother.. in Tunisia I think. And Steve and Ricey were there, there were some foreign kids that appeared to belong to a mother that my mum knew. A HUGE FUCK OFF Spider kept following one of the kids around, and I put it on a leash.. took it off and it fell down a crack in the floor on the stairs of the hotel. Erm, there was a very VERY dirty incident involving Ricey, Me and Steve. Which was utterly bizarre. I was playing acoustic guitar really well. A japanese guy and a DDR freak were teaching kids Freestyle DDR moves in the arcade, and these greasy looking pikey-goths were following me about and kissing me. The japanese kid had an idea to remove all the gemstones from the wall of the hotel to divert attention that we were being followed to alert the security, and it all turned into a Melee of CSI cross Final Fantasy. My mum was greasing me up with carrot Oil so I'd get a tan, I thought/dreamt I could feel my skin burning. Someone else was there too, I cant remember who it was though, it was either Kelly or Sarah. Hm.
Had a photoshoot with Septum Kelly, done by Libee and watched by Lucy, nudity and bondage restraints were involved. Here is a particuarly silly picture of me and Kelly. The rest will be available soon on www.chilean-rose.co.uk.
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[26 Nov 2006|10:14pm] |
Due To The Amount Of People I Really Do Dislike.
It's Now Friends Only People.
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| [ Rant. ] |
[19 Sep 2006|01:43pm] |
I dunno. Hm, Im out of Rizla so this is going to be a slightly nicotene withdrawl routed rant. Kind of a rant. Ok, a rant.
I'm afraid Im going to take a leaf from someone else's book, this time, Mel's book. Darlin', you know I dont copy people, but I have to base my rant on yours! ;) Hope you dont mind.
I dont know where to start, or if this is going to offend anyone. But hey, I really dont care. You dont like it? Im sure you can find the 'back' button or rant at me in person. I wont be listening anyway as certain people don't listen to me. I give what I recieve. I always worked this way, and I always will.
"Stop telling me to think about it and take a look in the mirror for one second." I find myself either thinking this, or grumbling it under my breath far too much recently. Or at least some variant of the sentence.
CHRIST (not in the literal sense of the name). You are not all powerful! Give me a chance to speak MY mind and have YOU listen for a second. It's not that you don't listen to anything, it's that when I have something meaningful to say about the situation or my feelings, the rules suddenly do a 180 degree turn, straight into arguement avenue.
When YOU are in a mood, I am expected to listen and adhere to anything you happen to command or take in anything derogatory about myself, my actions or anything you say as gospel.
Yet when I happen to have a problem, or something to say, you either shout/moan/storm off/get arsey with me, and dont listen to a word I say, putting it down to my poor self image! I wouldn't have so little confidence in myself or my actions If perhaps you listened to what I had to say once in a while about my feelings, instead of dismissing them!
You GET your attention when you need it. Im not fussy about giving you attention, if you want it, it's there.
I expect the favour returned.
If you say something, and I say "Well I found this cheaper/looking different etc" Dont say "NO, YOUR WRONG." Just say "Oh? Where did you find those then? Maybe that will work" Instead of trying to protect your intellect by telling me I'm always wrong!
You have been on this earth longer than I have, and have had many bad experiences, as I have had aswell. But it makes you no more worth of a correct answer or a rating of higher intelligence. I am intelligent, articulate and profitably creative. Treat me that way. (refer to section "Give what I recieve" piece of this rant.)
I like being complimented on my make-up when you come home.
I like looking nice, and like being complimented on trying to look nice for when you get home!
I like being thanked for cleaning when you get home. It is not just expected, especially from me!
I like a cuddle when I've been making dreads all day, and cleaning, and running out of smokes and still managing a smile when you come home.
Etc.etc.
Im sure every woman will agree with me.
A woman needs food, water & compliments...and the occasional pair of shoes. (God bless Chris Rock.)
I dont sit at a computer all day for the fucking fun of it! Im trying to advertise, get work and orders, show the world my hair design and find photographers interested in photgraphing me for cash!
FOR REFERENCE.
I am not 'having a go' or trying to 'belittle' you.
I am simply putting this down in words, because I havent got an ice-cube in hells chance of saying this otherwise.
'Its all about compromise'. Well, I've done my bit, now do yours. You dont want to? Well, then you've made a silly mistake. And dont say "Theres nothing wrong with the way I treat you or speak to you". If there was nothing wrong, I wouldnt be complaining.
And in the wise words of Strapping Young Lads Devin Townsend.
"I know what I stand for, I stand for me."
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| [ Birthday, Dreads & Staffies ] |
[24 Aug 2006|01:51am] |
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Nyeh watching Extras. |
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Well, the dogs stopped humping everything and has generally calmed down finally! He goes on sunday :( I know I'll miss the shag-monster staffie.
Emma came over (Ed's sister) and brought my birthday presents early and insisted I opened them now. Unto my complete suprise (sarcasm) was a bottle of JD, a pack of fags and a silver bracelet :D. All very very very very lovely, and I am drinking the JD now. =] The bracelet is silver with flowers and squares of turquoise gemstones :D. The fags are dead. Smoked to oblivion. :D.
My birthday in like... 22 hours. BRING ON THE 18 BABY! Cause its all downhill from there. hehe.
Again, much loveeee to the people going to infest tomorrow and Im sorry I cant come! All of you who are coming to P-1 for my birthday drop me a confirmation message. :D
Ive made over 200 dreads in the past 3-4 days...heres some pics to entertain yoou. :D
( Dreadalicious... )
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[18 Aug 2006|02:14am] |
MEH!
ILL! Not as ill as Fran, who unfortunatley has blood poisoning. Well thats what you get from cutting your finger and swimming in raw sewage.. er, I mean Skegness sea-water. Hope she gets better, the urge to nick her Opeth belt buckle rises day by day! :P
Went into town today and bought Ed one of those "You Make Me Smile" grey teddybears with the blue noses from Clintons, with a card and some skull-theme jewelry. He gave me the second dog tag from the necklace I got him so we both had a part of it, aww bless :) Aint we soppy!
Cant sleep, can only eat soup. Wish I had salmonella. I wanna drop 3 stone in a week!
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| [ Words ] |
[15 Aug 2006|04:59am] |
I got very bored, and full of explict words and pictures in my mind after listening to Strapping Young Lads Love? for a few hours. I came out of the experience with this typed into Word.
Predatorial and sordid, sallow flesh distastefully florid.
Beneath whims I cannot plausibly unpick.
This bitter terrazzo composes me to feel sick.
No subject of feeling, I am strained now, retreating.
Under rule and command, I acquiesce, completing.
This ailing scenario of authoritarian rule.
My pallid cambers are my masters’ tool.
Under duress and devoid of face, I am altered, suitably disgraced.
An animal aroma of solitary distinction.
Ordered and detained I obey with diction.
Afflicted and chained, I am educated, I am trained.
To satisfy, to please, I must sustain or be caned.
The perfume of debauchery loiters in instance
My gilded frame is for my leader’s existence.
Positioned and arranged, Torn down and strung up.
Manhandled, appeased, sex-struck and bucked.
Affliction, Jurisdiction of this sickening position.
I’m a slave to this beast with a lack of discretion.
In full, with lashings, I’m suitably christened.
A hostage to this predator,
My remains,
Complete Submission.
Bit sadistic, eh?
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| [ My Fucking Ruin ] |
[10 Jul 2006|01:54pm] |
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My Ruin - Get Pretty |
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Well, I went to a last minute My Ruin gig, at the Crew in Nuneaton, which is absolutely tiny.
I was returning from the bathroom, and walked back over to the table that me, Mike (Joeysic), Drask (Drask) and Ed (Mogwai69) were all sitting at, and they all chirrped up with "Tairrie B, is standing at the bar!" to which I responded, "No, your shittin me." Mike grabbed my wrist and took me round the corner, so I could see, TAIRRIE FUCKING B, standin at the bar!
I screamed a little and ran back to my chair, when 30 seconds later, she brushed past! I thought I was going to die, I had to have a double JD and coke to calm down! Shes so, fucking, beautiful!
Anyways, we were queueing to get upstairs, and some kids were having their pictures taken with Tarrie in the coridoor to the backstage/Upstairs entrance. She turned around and said she loved my eyelashes and make-up, so I had a few pictures taken with her, and so did Ed! The kids went upstairs, and Tairrie got her video camera out, and started filmin me and Ed! Apparantly Ed looks like one of her friends boyfriends, which is damn cool.
She has the most beautiful personality, ever. Which makes her even more attractive! Shes so goddamn pretty as well! Really down to earth and appreciates her fans, just like any rock-star should!
So, we all went upstairs, and I got a My Ruin tshirt ♥. Had another chat with Tairrie, she then autographed a piece of paper for me, and agreed to a shot of jagermeister from me, mid-set :D.
Soon enough, they came on stage and OH MY GOD. She can fucking carry a growl! I gave her the shot of Jagmeister to which she said. "There aint nothing like a nice cold shot of Jager, thank you baby." :D :D: :D.
THE BEST BIT! During the set, she reached out and grabbed me THREE times, and held onto me! (got pictures and videos of all of this :D) When they played Beauty Fiend, I got to scream "Im your Beauty" two times and "I am not your PRETTY FACE" :D :D :D. Then, I took my rose off of my wrist, and held my hands into the air, she grabbed my hand, and took my rose and put it on, and kept it :D
The set was FUCKING BRILLIANT :D
Afterwards, we all went downstairs to get more autographs,and to say goodbye to Tairrie, I recieved a hug and a kiss of of Tairrie and Mick, and went home, My Ruin blasting out of the car stereo :D
BEST.GIG.OF.MY.LIFE.♥
Pictures!!!!!!!!
http://i6.tinypic.com/1zh0bpg.jpg - Me & Tairrie
http://i6.tinypic.com/1zh0dfs.jpg - Ed & Tairrie
http://i6.tinypic.com/1zh0dj6.jpg - Gig Pic 1
http://i6.tinypic.com/1zh0doh.jpg - Gig Pic 2
http://i6.tinypic.com/1zh0dwz.jpg - Gig Pic 3
http://i6.tinypic.com/1zh0e4g.jpg - Me & Tairrie #2
http://i6.tinypic.com/1zh0eaa.jpg - Me & Tairrie AGAIN!
http://i6.tinypic.com/1zh0emr.jpg - Gig Pic 4 (Wearing my rose)
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| [ Download & Poisonarts ] |
[04 Jul 2006|05:32pm] |
Utterly Fantastic! Great sets and great bands, and although the weather was far too hot and there were quite a few drawbacks..
1-One of Soilworks members suffered a vascular spasm and they couldnt play, so were replaced by Devil Driver
2-J.Davis is in hospital, so couldnt play with his band, had Korn Kareoke Instead
3-Didnt see ANY sign of the Download babes contest
4-Christelle couldnt make it. Boo.
5-Food=Too Expensive
6-RIP Package was bollocks, left us feeling fucking ripped off.
7-Paid £810 to walk 1 mile to the arena and back, each day, because they didnt have shuttle buses from our pods.
8-Pods were cool, just not enough height, or shade.
9-Less interaction/drunkeness due to walking/where we were camping
10-Got my left big toe almost cracked in two in the Cradle Pit, so we left during BFMV.
11-Missed GnR. :(
12-And missed the riot vans :(
BUT!
Good things too ;)
1-Got lotsa pics! Including with the Download dog, Anubis, Pharoahs Guards,and random other things =]
2-Was right at the front line for Within Temptation and Opeth + Got on the screens for opeth :D And got the horns thrown at meeee.
ALSO -
Im featured Model on Poisonarts.co.uk =]
GO LOOK!
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| Note To Self. |
[19 May 2006|01:33am] |
When indulging in the carnal acts, CUT HIS NAILS BEFORE HE EVEN COMES NEAR YOU.
Oh, my, god, it stings, It hurts so fucking badly.
I cant walk now.
Joy.
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| Stuff :) |
[03 May 2006|10:17am] |
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Fuuuturama! ♥ |
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Just joined poisonarts.co.uk, the profile should be up soon :)
Also, a photoshoot on friday with Alex Herington. ♥
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| Stolen from Franimality |
[02 May 2006|03:08pm] |
Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post the first line(s) from the first 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Bold out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!
1-Ive become Impossible...
2-Incarnated marvels simplified, Effects from such a disconsolate kind
3-Friday night and I need a fight, My motorcycle and a switchblade knife
4-Ive had nothing but bad luck, since they day I saw that cat at my door
5-Now I can take this, everything I know, Realize that I'm nothing I wanted to be
6-Pain is really what you wanna be, What you gonna say?
7-Straight to your face, Straight to your face, Straight to your face with the truth :P
8-When tomorrow comes, we'll be one of them
9-Im in love, with you. And its crushing my heart.
10-What an amazing time, what a family...
11-So glad to see you well, overcome them, completely silent now
12-And it doesnt matter how you feel now, anything at all
13-I love myself, I want you to love me
14-Burning fires, burning lights, on the long distant roads.
15-Tear down the walls, wake up the world..
16-Soon I discovered that this rock thing was true, Jerry Lee Lewis was the devil...
17-Dealing out the agony within, Charging hard and no-ones gunna give in...
18-Your mouth is like a funeral, where kisses go to die
19-He who gets slapped and he who gets saved
20-I signed a contract with the devil, I tried for so very long
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| finally, an update! |
[28 Apr 2006|10:32am] |
m going to apologise for the huge lack and delay in journal entries, but I have decent excuses!
After someone, managed to break my heart without even trying and decide to be an arse, I met a rather charming gentlemanm called Ed. The second I saw him, I dropped to my knees and started to caress his fucking gorgeous special edition chains'n'spikes knee high new rocks <3.
We got talking, and found we had quite a lot in common! Even though there is a substantial age gap, it doesnt seem like it, and he doesnt look his age either, much younger in fact.
So I guess we just took it from there, but, I dont want to reveal too much, and uproar will be caused!
Needless to say, he treats me like a princess, cooks and cleans, has a swish car, hes funny, geeky, caring, passionate.. and he spoils me, against my will but he spoils me. ♥
So, as I rarely spoil myself, we took a trip in the car down to camden yesterday... want me to fill you in? Tough shit, Im going to tell you anyway.
We got up at, guess what, 5 fucking AM. I didnt KNOW there was a 5 am. But nevermind... Travelled down there, parked in finchley and got the tube into Camden, all by 8am.
Sat in cafe nero for a while, and wandered till the shops opened. Also watched two connected boats float up the lock which started a conversation about how ingenious and fantastic the victorians are! Mooched around a little more, bargaining with store owners until the mighty Black Rose and Drag Strip opened for business..
I practically had an orgasm on the spot, I forgot HOW MUCH I loved that shop.
But, as my footwear SUCKS ( I have a delapidated pair of 2 year old boots that are falling apart, and a pair of shoes too big for my which I wear for work ) so my feet were hurting, Ed took me to Scorpions, and got me a pair of TUK Pink and Leopard print suede pair of creepers for £20! £20! BARGAIN! Then, mishin down the road, I FELL into another shoe shop... and had another orgasm. 7 Inch Doc style Demonia platforms, for £70, and a pair of black suede and leopard print platform heeled shoes for £35. I fell to my knees again in appreciation! Also tried on some other shoes which failed to fit. Then took a trip back to the car as we werent lugging all these shoes round all day...
The shopping continued...
All manner of pretty clothes and accesories were purchased, mostly on my part either by me or Ed though.
Was even more surprised, when we went back to Scorpions, I was bought a pair of Spring Stack PVC Knee High New Rocks (which we saw earlier, along with the legendary 3 spring stacks *18 inches of platform* which no-one can walk in. I didnt even think they existed, but alas, cannot walk in and didnt buy) for £100! Ed also tried on the Motorcycle New rock leg guards, but decided against them... He bought a regular pair of new rocks for himself, a pair of Greenday converse for his daughter, and me, the bargain of spring stack new rocks...
He then purchased the most gorgeous top for himself, black lycra/mesh and latex top, which is orgasmic in itself!
More shoppinh commenced, with Ed buying the ONLY pair of sunglasses which I liked, not realising I wanted them, for himself! Chased him round the shop for them, and he eventually gave up XD and just gave them to me (I was joking, so now I feel bad :( )
Jumpped on the tube, got in the car and went home, I slept for most of it, and the traffic was horrendous!
So my list of shoe wear came to...
New Rock Stack Springs In PVC Knee High Boots
Demonia Doc-Style Stacks
TUK Leopard Print & Black Suede Platform Heels
TUK Pink Suede and Leopard Print Creepers
I wont list the rest of the stuff I bought, or ed bought, too muvh effort! Ill put pictures up later ;)
Thank you Ed, I had the best day Ive had in a very, very, very long time :) ♥
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| Song and a half. |
[01 Apr 2006|01:15am] |
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If this world is wearing thin
And you're thinking of escape
I'll go anywhere with you
Just wrap me up in chains
But if you try to go alone
Don't think I'll understand
I'll do anything it takes
Chorus
Stay with me, stay with me
In the silence of your room
In the darkness of your dreams
You must only think of me
There can be no in between
When your pride is on the floor
I'll make you beg for more
In the darkness of your schemes
There among the souvenirs
And the useless memories
Chorus
You'd better hope and pray
That you make it safe
Back to your own world
You'd better hope and pray
That you wake one day
In your own world
'Cause when you sleep at night
They don't hear your cries
In your own world
Only time will tell
If you can break the spell
Back in your own world
That you'll be safe
In your own world
That you're gonna awake
Back in your own world
Chorus
stay...
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| [ lily munster aint got nothing on me ] |
[31 Mar 2006|05:16pm] |
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Shake it baby, shake it baby, SHAAAKE.
Anyways, I went clothes shopping today for work ^^ New shoes, trousers, tshirts, shirt and cute little jumper ^^
Is anyone out at retribution on saturday? As it is AUTONOMY, and I cant decide on an outfit :( I want to go all psychobilly and do my hair, but I know Ill want to headbang and mess up my hair XD
I miss Al =/
*boogies to Primal Scream* Not heard this song in TIIIME.
And people, update your blogs! Your all waaaay behind! I need gossip and news!
Other news - Ive got those fucking awful stomach spasms back again, and Im back on antispasmodic drugs, if these dont work, Ill have to goto hospital to be put on trial drugs ><
Im also just generally ill, my anemia is catching up with me again, Ive been asleep for most of the day and ive got no energy whatsoever.
I better clean up my room and do some laundry.
Catch ya laters. x
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| [ hmm. ] |
[29 Mar 2006|02:43pm] |
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I dont know whats up with me.
New job, all my friends back, a new (very, very special) man in my life, and for once content with my body and the way I look.
Yet I feel theres still something wrong. Im as paranoid as ever, and I cant seem to shake the feeling Im either being used, backstabbed or lied to all the time, even If I know Im not.
I know Im scared of letting anyone close to me again, incase I hurt them.
I also feel like Im letting Al down, and that Im not good enough for him, maybe he would be better off without me.
I dont know, I'll just finish my red wine and stuff.
Yeah, its quarter to 3 in the afternoon.
(Also scared Im becoming an alcaholic)
xXx
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| Decision Making |
[28 Mar 2006|11:15pm] |
Red and Black hair.
Or.
Purple and Black hair.
Answers on a postcard plzkthnx.
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